"now I’m not quite sure what to think — but I do know that I’ve proven to myself that I no longer need anyone’s permission, validation, nor to make myself very small in exchange for love with contingency clauses" - now I know what to look for to know if I am progressing on the scale of self-worth, confidence and respect.
"The past month I’ve been hearing my own voice far more clearly. She’s louder than I remember. More jaded but also wiser, less willing to adopt the narratives of others. She knows what she wants: to grow up with you, dear reader, to relish in defining our shared compounding context, and for love to never be a consolation and instead, be light. Which requires we both believe in our own lights to begin with (I’m working on it). I’ve become far less willing to sacrifice my needs; in this new environment of my making, feeling listened to and seen by people that really, truly love me is merely the baseline."
"now I’m not quite sure what to think — but I do know that I’ve proven to myself that I no longer need anyone’s permission, validation, nor to make myself very small in exchange for love with contingency clauses" - now I know what to look for to know if I am progressing on the scale of self-worth, confidence and respect.
It's a good take on confidence.
"The past month I’ve been hearing my own voice far more clearly. She’s louder than I remember. More jaded but also wiser, less willing to adopt the narratives of others. She knows what she wants: to grow up with you, dear reader, to relish in defining our shared compounding context, and for love to never be a consolation and instead, be light. Which requires we both believe in our own lights to begin with (I’m working on it). I’ve become far less willing to sacrifice my needs; in this new environment of my making, feeling listened to and seen by people that really, truly love me is merely the baseline."
Love this.
This is wonderful: 'Building the capacity to “just know” requires sitting in the unknown for uncomfortably long periods of time...'
"I was just missing the final piece (actually valuing my own perspective)."
the beginning and the end!
I enjoyed reading this, you are brave! ✨💞